03/23/26 - Depersonalization and Edibles

For a bit of context: I decided to have a sleepover with my friend the day before he had to leave to go back to college,, the only day that work was the friday before I had to leave on a trip to see my extended family.

It all began on friday night when I decided to take gummies with my friends, leading up to this I was quite excited. I'd taken 10mg edibles in the past and despite how stange it had felt the first time I had a good time so I didnt think this time would be different. We took them around 11 at night and then played some video games together. I was the first one to feel it. It started with a lot of laughing and just generally being relaxed,, it honestly felt really good. We watched some Youtube and everyone began to relax and giggle a ton.

I dont recall much of what happened after this. I remeber being on the floor watching Jerma thirst edits on pinetrest before I started to feel strange. I felt like I was clipping around a bunch and I couldnt seperate what was real and fake. This caused me to burst into a panic. I got on my bed and played some music but even that didnt help. Eventually I curled up under my covered. I felt like I couldnt breath at all (even though I was breathing perfectly fine) and I started to think I was dying.

To get through the rest of this excruciatingly long night I focused on my heartbeat and the sound of the train outside. I thought about people that make me happy,, which felt a lot better.

I was able to fall asleep after a few hours that felt unbelievably long. I thought I was finally sober cuz it wouldve been about 6 hours but I still felt terrible. I realized that I had to go on a pretty long car ride to go see my family. I was panicking even more but I got myself to calm down enough to kick all my friends out, get dressed, and get ready to leave.

The car ride was very euphoric despite my panic the pervious night. I played some Father John Misty, then some Pulp, and some Charli xcx and I was very relaxed but I didnt fall asleep.

04/02/26 update - Its been 2 weeks since the incident and I feel pretty normal now. It was just strange. Nothing like that had ever happened before. It wasnt really life altering though either. Rather I just felt lethargic throughout the week and I'd really lost my appetite. Weird experience.